career schmameer. i don't have one. should i?
i am expert in all things retail. this shouldn't be a surprise, with my art school degree, but it's no excuse.... the idea of a starving artist seems impossible. the only people i know that can manage to do this are either receipients of trust funds/inheritances or are on unemployment, and none are actually starving. since neither of these are an option for me, what can i do to better my position, and still have the time, energy, and funds for creating and sharing my art? i think about it. a lot. here i am, with piles, and books of pictures, sketches and paintings on the wall for only me to see, and ideas swirling about but with little motivation or strength to put the ideas into action.

i think i had a little start, months ago, where i was able to focus, but now? with all of the major life changes as of late, i am stifled. stuck, in a big mudhole. it's messy and takes a little time to crawl out of. i am hoping soon i will climb out the hole and clean off and seriously kick myself in the ass.

i don't want to whine.
it could always be worse.

it's interesting when you realize that you would rather go to work over an hour early than stay in your apartment. fwooooooooooooosh.

upon our return, it is only more evident that we need to GET THE FUCK OUT of this place.

things to think about

vacation has arrived. i don't even care that it will be rainy. gimme.

living with other people is not something i enjoy.
at least not when my bedroom is attached to the livingroom,
and the other people seem to not understand what courtesy or volume control are.

it's june first. i want this summer to be a fun but productive one. i've got grand ideas for the near future, it's just a matter of making them happen. if i seem to be out of touch or distant, it's only because there is lots to take care of.

i am looking forward to a few days at the cape. i plan on making delicious salads to counteract the growlers i am going to knock back. i would like blow on jugs, snap some shots, read a book or two...

he doesn't need braces.

he's got a great smile.