Tuesday, May 29

notes.

goodbye to:
my hair
allston

fuck off to:

pollen
having to work
broken technology

we have free cable at our new place. hooray for the history channel!

i found the camera, took some pictures, only i still haven't found the cord that connects it to the computer. i also haven't found my phone charger. oops.

i have spent the most time in the kitchen. while i was wiping down the counter sunday night, chris compared me to a man who spends all day cleaning his car and wiping it with soft rags. ha.

a discovery this morning: movin' easy on sirius is a suitable substitution for the time life classic soft rock collection. i already heard jack wagner this morning!




dreamy.

Sunday, May 27

you love me, you really love me

we made it to w. newton, thanks to our powerful muscles, chris's wonderful helpful parents, and pure luck. things fell into place nicely. all of our major injuries occured after his parents left, thankfully. i have a purple nail on the middle finger of my left hand (crunched in the door, tricksy!) and chris has a big scrape/bruise on his shin (falling off the roof, don't ask.) we are both covered in various bruises (forearms, hip bones, BOOB BRUISE?!) and i feel crippled today. clearly, i am out of shape, despite my mornings on the farm.

our bathroom ceiling is rather low. no one over 6 ft could take a shower. chris has to tilt his head to get his hair wet. oops. hahahhaaa. but he's a good sport and has no complaints. when i took a shower, though... boy. i definitely need to purchase those little appliques that go on the bottom of the tub. i almost took a header when i turned around to get my shampoo. it would have been terrible to break my skull or my ass on our first night here.

we did manage to lock ourselves out at the end of night, but luckily i am small enough to slither through a tiny window... okay so i didn't slither, more like awkwardly tried to stuff my body through a tiny hole, getting stuck in the process but finally making it in, the cats watching the entire time. we weren't entirely sober when this took place, so it's pretty impressive that i actually made it through in one piece.

i want to take some pictures today but i don't know what box that camera is in.

we saw a cardinal last night! and the landlord's old lady cat has been hanging out right outside our door, tormenting my kits. they did get to venture out briefly yesterday, and now that they've had a taste, i foresee many escape attempts in our future. OH there are raspberries growing out back, too! TONS OF THEM. and trees, man. trees are awesome.

i haven't seen/heard any ghosts yet. but i'm pretty sure they are here. i hope they like me.

Friday, May 25

um.

i am surrounded by boxes.
i am watching some terrible daytime talk show with makeovers and it's making me emotional,
because a heavy metal dude got new teeth.
my cats sadly watched me as i threw out a bunch of their toys.
i have to work in three hours.
my closet threw up on the floor.


you don't need food or sleep if you have caffeine.

surely as the grass is green

i made an appointment and now i am having second thoughts...how typically libra of me. i could still cancel it. maybe the shape of my face has changed since the last time i had no hair? maybe i will hate it all of the sudden? maybe i am just afraid of CHANGE and i am moving tomorrow and i feel like if one thing is changing i should just do it all at once?

i am being ridiculous, since i've stated time and time again that this:



is one of my all-time favorite haircuts.
do it, do it, don't be silly.

i am drinking coffee again today. it's going to be a long weekend in more ways than one.

Thursday, May 24

two things:

1. last night i dreamt of a beautiful bass guitar, and in the dream it was mine. this is surely a sign.

2. drink coffee, pay the price.

Wednesday, May 23

90% sure

i am going to chop this mop.

Tuesday, May 22

tinny.

even though i had the digital camera with me on saturday, the rain and the fact that we were always in some crowded store prevented me from taking any actual decent pictures of cassidy. i did, however, take two poor quality cellphone pictures, which i will show you now:





she scratched her face with her tiny claws before my sister got a chance to trim them. i did get her to smile, and almost laugh, by blowing on her toes. next time i see her, i will be sure to do that with my camera in hand.

in other news, i am thinking of chopping all of my hair off. sometimes i catch my reflection and i think i look too much like my mom with all this hair. i don't know how i feel about that...

Friday, May 18

i'm feeling wobbly.

It could be liver cake or wooly mammoth steak

honestly, i think weird al is a fucking genius.

i really hope he sings to me in august, i will cry like marcia brady did for davey jones. i don't think one day goes by without me listening to him. the food album is the only tape that goes in my walkman!

no matter what my mood is, he can always make me smile.



my grammy was in ICU last night, for precautionary measures, but the surgery seemed to go okay. i am not sure if i am going to CT today or not.... i am leaning more towards yes, but i am exhausted and scheduled to work at the bookstore tonight, too.

yeah okay. time for more weird al. i need to be soothed.

Wednesday, May 16

say a prayer

or think good thoughts (if prayers aren't your thing) for my grammy:



(this picture is... five years old, i think.)

she fell down and broke her hip today. she is having surgery tomorrow morning. she had to spend all day waiting around in the emergency room, from 11:30 am to just past 8 pm. poor grammy! her nurse is actually a woman that my mother grew up with. small world. she told my mom that grammy is really funny. i'm glad to know that she is feeling well enough to make others laugh. they gave her some morphine tonight and she told my mom it didn't hurt at all, even before the morphine. as my dad would say, she's a tough old broad.

maybe when you are 96 and have seen so much, lived through SO MUCH.... a broken hip probably really isn't a big deal. i don't think she's scared. in fact, i don't think she's ever been really scared except maybe when she was five, when her mother died and her father dropped her and her sister off at an orphanage. she lived there until she was 16. they told her she was free to go then, but she had nowhere to go, it was the only home she'd ever know, so she stayed and worked there for two years before she went to college where she was PHYSICAL EDUCATION major! her name is mildred, middle name emily, which is my middle name, but she has gone by the name of CHICK for years. "chick & dick", my grammy and grandaddy. when i was a kid, we played yahtzee for hours on end. she is the reason that i have an intense love for jackpot yahtzee. and also the reason why i have bad memories of cottage cheese and lettuce salad washed down with lukewarm milk. blech! but you had to eat whatever she put in front of you, and you only got one glass of milk with each meal, so there was no swallowing bites with big gulps of milk.

i love my grammy. she is not your typical grammy who hugs and gushes. she tells it like it is, no bullshit, and she can be downright mean. i love her for that. if you piss her off, or she thinks you look ugly, she will DEFINITELY tell you. it's an admirable way to live, for the most part.

i'm pretty sure that her surgery will be no big deal. i feel terrible that i haven't seen her since christmas but i am glad that i sent her a mother's day card with a long letter last week. and when we go home to CT for chris's sister's high school graduation, we will stop there on our way home, maybe with a carton of shady glen chocolate chip ice cream. and tomorrow i will send some flowers, though she probably will just say that was a waste of money since they just die, and she will have a point.

good lady, i am proud to be your granddaughter.

Sunday, May 13

freckles

yesterday was a beautiful morning at the farm. the weather was perfect, and lots of volunteers came out to help. we planted 3 rows, 300 yards each, of five varieties of lettuce. i had great conversations with dawn about how silly extravagant weddings are, and about new englanders' cold nature (both of us, of course, being very proud to come from here, ha. ) i met a nice fellow who works as a landscape architect and when i told him i was a direct descendent to frederick law olmsted, he was really excited. it was the first time i told someone who really appreciated it!

there were a couple of young boys in our group who were so eager to work; one of them was practically begging his mom to let them get a farm share before they were all sold out, and the other deciding that he was going to apply for the food project job next year (ages 14-17 only, i am sadly too old.) and saying that he didnt want the weekly stipend that they pay the kids ($150 a week) and that he would just give it to charity. kids these days!

it was such a great day, really. i won't be able to go back for three weeks, since we are packing next weekend and moving the weekend after that, but that's okay. i am pretty sore today, and i have to work at the bookstore this afternoon, which should be funny since my legs dont want to work.

the best part of yesterday was coming home to plant my two new babies:





FRECKLED lettuce. awwwwwwwwwww.

Friday, May 11

go go go.

i need more hours in the day.

Tuesday, May 8

a moment of inspiration








brought to you by the sunshine and my cats.... kiki always looks so pissed.

it's been awhile.

i've been very busy. this isn't going to change anytime soon,
but will hopefully settle into a better routine so that i can find
time for picture taking and writing. we are moving to w. newton in
a few weeks and i've got projects planned for once we get settled,
so if you are actually reading this, remember that patience
is a virtue, and please check back soon.